Friday, January 16, 2015

A Dream Come True

As a young girl I would imagine about the days of having a husband. I dreamed that he would be like a brother to my sisters. I pictured them laughing together and playing.

I had very much forgotten about these daydreams as life continued on. When I began dating Kevin, my sisters were miles and miles away in Florida. We were quite serious before they even met him. They spent all of one week of time with him before I walked down the aisle to be his forever wife.

Our time with my family since then has been so quick and hurried until this past Christmas trip. This year, we took off nearly a week to be in Florida with them. Before my very eyes I saw my childhood daydreams come to life. My husband interacting with, loving on, playing with, helping and simply enjoying being with my little sisters. My heart overflowed with joy and delight as I watched each day progress. The sweet patience he had with them blew me away. He indulged them in their picture ideas and was up to any goofy idea they could come up with.

Not once. Not once did he come to me and say he couldn't take it anymore. Not once did he say he'd had enough. Not once did he express the need to get away. Not once did he mention anything about the trip being too long. In fact, he wished we'd had longer, with the exception of missing Paisley. And that, I realized, was a childhood fear. A fear I'd carried for too long. I had feared that my one day boyfriend or later husband wouldn't enjoy being with my family.

You know what is so incredibly sweet about it all? God heard my heart. He saw it daydreaming and He saw it hurting and He declared in his absolute goodness that He was going to take care of these. He did that, not by pushing me around but by working within my, deeply and gently within me (Ephesians 3:20, MSG).

Simply amazing!

Thank you O LORD for this precious precious gift that I could have never deserved on my own. Words cannot express the emotions that welled up inside me watching it all unfold this Christmas. My heart is overjoyed.

Heart. Full.

Wednesday, January 14, 2015

The Love Story: A Year in the Books

This is a series about our love story that I've been carrying on for far too long. If you're new, check out all the previous posts here and bear with me as I attempt to make a sprint to the finish line aka the wedding day.


Sophomore year had come to a close and junior year was beginning. After our week of  being reunited, complete with a few days in Dallas to check out the zoo, we were prepping for the new semester. We had a semester of fun and busy days ahead of us. As much as I looked forward to the future with Kevin, I couldn't help but look back on our sweet early days. I remembered them so clearly and re-imagined the scenes in my head over and over again. I was completely smitten with this college, sports-loving, Jesus-lovin boy.

The semester progressed, studio projects and homework were of course there but we enjoyed date nights together. Come November 1st we had officially reached an entire year of dating. A month later and we had officially lasted longer than M and I had. It terrified me to think about it, but I still saw no end in site for Kevin and I. I wasn't tired of being around him, I didn't get irritated with him after being in his presence for a long time. Quite the opposite, all I wanted ever was more time with him! I dreamed of getting married but the idea that I could marry Kevin gave me a belly ache. I just couldn't get past the incredible commitment that was, and I still couldn't believe I was old enough to be in my third year of college, let alone be considering marriage.

We celebrated our anniversary by re-inventing our first date. We went to the same restaurant but instead of following it with a concert, we took a frigid boat tour of the little canal in downtown OKC. It was freezing that night but we still had a wonderful time all dressed up and just cherishing the moment. 

This semester was filled with some of my favorite pictures of us by far. Football games, date parties, my first experience at OUvsTX, date nights, hanging out nights, Halloween parties, Christmas lights...etc. 

I had a furniture design class as opposed to our traditional studio course. I decided on a headboard and without thinking quickly promised Kevin he could have it in his room until...  I'm not sure I even finished the sentence when I mentioned it to him. He didn't blink an eye at my presumptuous statement. I, on the other hand, caught my words in my mouth and felt dizzy. I later decided I worked too hard on it for it to not be in my room. But the thought of getting married was crossing into my mind before I even realized it.

Every day I continued to pray, Lord, if this is not the man for me, please begin the work in our hearts to unweave us. And if this is the man for me, Jesus make it ever so clear.

I was nervous for His answer, either one seemed impossible.

A year was in the books and Christmas break separated us once again. I was not prepared for the way my heart was going to miss this incredible man.

Friday, January 9, 2015

With Your God

This week I posted on instagram I was taping up a simplified version of Micah 6:8 above my workstation at the office. I've got the full verse on a post-it on my screens. This verse, as I mentioned a week ago, is my verse of 2015.

This verse brings peace to my heart. I read it likes this, Whatever comes, oh my daughter, I have shown you, Veronica, what is good. You have nothing to be worry or fret about because I have given you that wisdom. No matter what, in all circumstances, I have given you the instruction to act justly, love mercy, and walk humbly with me. I am with you always. I will give you strength. I will give you wisdom. I will give you peace. All I ask is that you lean into me and do as I instruct.

Sometimes we have no idea, most of the time really, what is to come and we don't have to! We are told to act justly, love mercy and walk humbly with HIM! He has it under control. Oh my beautiful sisters of the Lord, our part is so simple! Let it go and leave the complicated parts to God

*If you'd like these to print for yourself, feel free to right click and save the image or email me and I'll send you the original file. 
**Note: I do not claim the right to the floral artwork used in the image. It was part of a free desktop download that I downloaded several months ago. Unfortunately, I do not remember where it came from. Should you know, or should you be the creator, please let me know so I can give credit where it is due. Thank you.

Thursday, January 8, 2015

One Life

This is my new family.

The man up there that doesn't look like the rest, he just asked my mom to marry him. Him and his son, will someday soon be apart of our family. Just three years ago, it was just me and my sisters and my mom. Then Kevin joined us and we were back to five again. Once these two officially join, we will be seven and no longer fit in one car, well at least not one any of us own. 

My mother has shown her faith in the Lord with every big decision. She's given her life to Jesus and she shows that nearly every day. She trusted in Him and despite the trials of a divorce, the pain of depression, the battle of cancer, and the difficulty of being a single mother she has persevered under the Lord's providence of strength and courage. She continued to hope, and now here she is, engaged to a man who also loves the Lord, loves her family and adores and loves her. It's crazy what the Lord does with our stories, is it not? 

A while back my church did a series called One Life, you can catch the entire series here. One life is all we are given, and we aren't even guaranteed the number of days our life will be. This year, I know will look different because I'm living more fully for my Jesus. This one life I've been given, I want it to be a life lived full on for the Lord so that others might come to know Him.

At this point, this post is starting to sound very scattered. It has a running theme to it in my head but lately I've had a cold and I can't seem to get anything out of my mouth correctly. Things are clear in my head but don't come out clear when I write and speak to long story short, thanks for bearing with me...

At the end of the series, our church gave us the covenant below to declare over our one life. In my cleaning up the house this week, I stumbled across it again. It is entitled One Devotion Covenant, One Life 2014, but I'm going to declare this covenant over 2015 as well. It encouraged my heart, and I'm praying it does the same for you. 

One Life Devotion Covenant

Today, I am stepping across the line. I'm tired of waffling and I'm finished with wavering. I've made my choice, the verdict is in, and my decision is irrevocable. I'm going God's way. There's no turning back now!

I will live the rest of my life serving God's purposes with God's people on God's planet for God's glory.

I will use my life to celebrate His presence, cultivate His character, participate in His family, demonstrate His love and communicate His Word.

Since my past has been forgiven, and I have a purpose for living, and a home awaiting me in heaven. I refuse to waste any more time or energy on shallow living, petty thinking, trivial talking, thoughtless doing, useless regretting, hurtful resenting, or faithless worrying. Instead, I will magnify God, grow to maturity, serve in ministry, and fulfill my mission in the membership of His family.

Because this life is preparation for the next, I will value worship over wealth, "we" over "me," character over comfort, service over status, and people over possessions, position, and pleasures. I know what matters most and I'll give it all I've got. I'll do the best I can with what I have for Jesus Christ today.

I won't be captivated by culture, manipulated by critics, motivated by praise, frustrated by problems, debilitated by temptation, or intimidated by the devil. I'll keep running my race with my eyes on the goal, not the sidelines orthose running by me. When times get tough and I get tired I won't back  up, back off, back down, back out, or backslide. I'll just keep moving forward by God's grace. I'm Spirit-led, purpose-driven, and mission-focused so I cannot be bought. I will not be compromised, and I shall not quit until I finish the race.

I'm a trophy of God's amazing grace so I will be gracious to everyone, grateful for every day, and generous with everything the God entrusts to me.

To my Lord, and Savior Jesus Christ, I say- However, whenever, wherever, and whatever you ask me to do, my answer in advance is yes! Wherever you lead and whatever the cost I'm ready. Anytime. Anywhere. Anyway. Whatever it takes Lord; whatever it takes! I want to be used by you in such a way that on that final day I'll hear you say, "Well done, thou good and faithful one. Come on in and let the eternal party begin!"

(Note:I did not write the covenant nor do I claim ownership of it, it was written by and came from my church- )

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